There are times when I lose my inner monologue, or times, at least, when the monologue isn't that pressing, isn't that loud, and I'm just walking in and out of rooms, getting in and out of cars. Days pass noiselessly, like scenery above the darkness of a subway tunnel, and suddenly I find myself in a new week or month, emerging at a new location with little recollection of the journey.

In fact, the whole process is similar to what occurs here: nothing. It's a lot of nothingness -- awareness and passion blinking on and off. Sure -- I keep busy. Sometimes I don't write because I am keeping lunch dates and seeing movies and working and driving aimlessly all over town with a rotating cast of passengers. Sometimes I don't write because I've been moping around the house all day and don't have much to say. Sometimes, though, I'd rather write passionately about something than shuffle between locations.

I've been reading a lot, of course.

Today I watched the director's commentary on the bootleg cut of Almost Famous, found all the Easter eggs, watched all the special features, and basically exhausted the entirety of the DVD, save for the script and the Rolling Stone articles. I can only begin to imagine the significance that movie will hold for me once I leave highschool -- it is so saturated with my own experiences -- lines recited, times watched after midnight, music I've listened to. I think a lot of times groups of people will latch on to certain films that they always come back to. With my sister's friends it was Empire Records. For us, it's Almost Famous and Wet Hot American Summer. Perhaps their incongruity says something about our dynamic.

In other news, I've begun what will be a series of auctions known as Ebay Rummage Sale 2005. Mostly it's clothes, so if you're not a small female that likes wearing skirts, I'm afraid many of the items won't be interesting, but you can expect some books and maybe some LPs if I don't take all of them down to Charlemagne. And maybe some miscellaneous crap from my room. I'm trying to declutter. So here you are: Ebay Rummage Sale 2005.